I've had a good new friend for a few weeks now, and it was like everyday we talked. Now suddenly HOURS (all most a full 24) since we talked. How pathetic is it that I'm feeling neglected? I know I'm replaceable, not by any means a unique and beautiful snowflake... and so I usually work extra hard with my friends to make sure I give them my attention, my time, bits of myself.
So when they suddenly get busy with their own lives I get all selfish and pouty. I *KNOW* this is not sound healthy thinking. Okay? But blog.. You're my vent. I can tell you my thoughts and not worry about it. I can let out this stuff and feel better. Bleeding the sickness out in words and thoughts so I don't send a bizillin needy fawning texts.
Because, honestly? I know it's just getting schedules in line. My friends like me. I KNOW they do.
So..why do I feel a little abandoned? Is it to do with certain words used in a "play" situation? Probably. A button was found and pushed and I doubt they even know how much it affected me.
"I can find another.."
Oh don't. Not yet.