Fuck. Need to find a less public outlet for this mess! Someone guide me!? I'm lost, too now. Helping isn't helping. Everything suddenly stopped making sense and I .. I liked it just fine the way it was. Why the drama?
Drama is so stupid!
I want to help..
I want to...
And there's nothing I can do.
I miss my hubby. I'm stressed.
The paperwork has me in over my head.. Appointments, and signing, and figuring out how stuff works.
I want to cry.. To be held and told it'll all be better. To be pulled into someones arms and pet and loved for a few minutes. I've found temporary alternatives. Ways to let out the hurt a little. Ways to ease the ache.
But today.. my empathic/nurturing whatever self has me all aching. missing.. wishing. And not making a lick of sense because there's NOONE I can talk to about all of it.
The whole kit and caboodle.